Be your best self

So as my title says let’s start here in the middle, The middle being an event in my life where I had an attempt on my life and had to forgive the person almost immediately due to the circumstances where I was run over by a car. Or should I say shoved underneath and then ran over by a car from a woman who had absolutely no self-control. No mental stability and on drugs. My story started then when it took a toll on my marriage due to my injuries due to my PTSD due to my ex-husband’s lack of ability to handle what he witnessed in the beginning of my spiral downfall to my first leap of faith stepping out onto the stormy seas it’s fixing my eyes on and going towards my Christ Jesus my Savior. I’ve been in a 20 year semi-abusive relationship very volatile as I explained in my last blog when I was still being assaulted immediately after being ran over by a car, I decided it was time to go; So I prayed, pleaded with our Lord to help and The best part after that I just stayed strong, held faith and waited and he did everything; I then put the plans in order with my church to try to get out of there and God moved quickly and right around Christmas 2020 after being ran over in August 2020. Then I pressed charges against My soon-to-be ex-husband and he went to jail, and doing so, He abandoned me and our three children our three dogs or three cats and our bird and our home with me being disabled, broken and unable to work and provide for our family. So with nothing I felt there was left for me to do my church funded for us to go to a month-by-month hotel that we also could not afford, So the wonderful congregation of the church came together and provided two more months in a hotel for myself and my boys because when we left we just grabbed a few things we could fit in a car along with ourselves and the only the two dogs I could take. We started new. We were happy for once. We weren’t living in fear and we were free to be ourselves. We ran out of funds. I was working too much and had no car so we we’re doing very well was working three jobs had a car and we had a horrible car accident. We rolled our car 14 times. Two of my children were ejected yet by the grace of God minus my broken back, we walked away from that accident. However, car less again and broke and unable to work or walk because of my broken back. I healed for 2 weeks and went and got a job and another car and that car didn’t work out because I got scammed on Facebook. So this led us to the homeless shelter but we had to wait for an answer of approval time running out and No family, no friends. Nothing but dropping my children off at school and sitting in a Walmart parking lot for 8 hours. Crying begging God. What do I do next to the homeless shelter calling saying they had a spot for myself and my boys. I had to give up my animals, my support therapy dogs to the soon-to-be ex who moved back into the house after we left and in doing that that’s why I referred to stepping out onto the stormy sea. I have never been so full of faith and full of fear in my entire life. There’s nothing like and no way to describe holding three kids hands, two dogs leashes and all of us carrying a bag of our belongings (lifelong belongings) all in one bag that we could fit. That is enough depression for now lol, I just wanted to give a short introduction again starting at the middle because that’s how I seem to do things contradictory and from the middle out bahaha! Also, you’ll learn I should have took a day job as a stand-up comedian because I’m better at making jokes especially at myself then I am much anything else. But that is a scary way to trust God. But since then I’ve had the sense of peace, and freedom and I have no fear, no doubt and no worry from day to day. I know that anxiety comes from Satan and I know that trust faith and all of my needs come from God, Jesus and the holy Spirit. So please continue to read my blogs at some point. I hope I can at least be relatable get a giggle or be some sort of inspiration to people in a situation like mine or exactly the same as mine. All you need to do is PRAY!!! Trust God believe and follow what he tells you, LET the Bible and God’s word be your compass.